Monday, November 23, 2009

What if I'm a jerk?

Sometimes, usually after a big event or social thing, I start to wonder... what if I was a jerk? I look back over my conversations and interactions with people and worry: was my response snippy? Did what I say make someone feel bad? What if I missed a grimace in response to something I said? Oh shoot. Should I call them and ask if I was a jerk when we were together? If I wasn't, they'll say "why would you think that?" and I will have to give them an example of when I thought I might have been acting jerky. Then, maybe, they'll realize what a jerk I was, even though they hadn't noticed it before. Maybe it's best not to bring anything up.
After my wedding, I worried that maybe I'd missed someone, or turned away from someone before they were done speaking to me, or didn't pay enough attention to someone. I worry that my bridesmaids might have been miserable, or my parents might have felt neglected. I dunno.
Well, I hope I'm not a jerk. If anyone out there has noticed me being jerky, break it to me gently, will ya?

5 comments:

Kristen said...

The last thing you are is a jerk. Seriously. :-)

Her Harlequin said...

we keep coming back, don't we?

CatholicWizKid said...

I have recently started worrying about this. Every once and awhile I say something and the teens say, "OH, BUURRRNN". And I did not think it was one. That is what worries me the most.

FrChip said...

I don't think you're a jerk and I would know cause it takes one to know one!

peejd1102 said...

And the end. The end. The end.